Hey my loves,
today it’s going to be a little bit of a personal blog entry. The last couple of weeks were tough for a number of reasons and I struggled very hard to upkeep a positive mindset. And while I was in this situation and feeling down a lot, I looked at a lot of different blogs and YouTube channels from other content creators and fellow bloggers who struggle too and it helped. It made me realize that I am not alone in this.
But who got me through it all were my amazing friends who were and still are there for me, even if that means just making me laugh and not talk about it. Sometimes that’s just right. So a huge shout out and thank you to my friends! I love you girls!
Now, you might notice that I never actually talk about any struggles or at least never go into detail and to be honest that is just because I feel like sharing my problems, my private problems, is not something I want to do on a broad platform. But I kind of feel like I want to change that, but in a dimension where I don’t go into my family problems. But rather my struggles with staying motivated and positive.
A couple of days ago I had one of my moods growing out of struggles that just became too much and I decided I needed a change. And that change was dip-dying my hair pink.
You might know the saying: A picture is worth a thousand words.
When I look at that picture I see a girl who struggled very hard the day before with all her emotions, a girl who had to put on makeup and get out of the house and pretend everything is okay the next one, because where she was going she couldn’t talk about her struggles.
But do you want to know what I also see?
I see a strong woman, who knows that she is stronger than the overwhelming feeling of pain. I see a strong woman, who puts a lot of people first and loves hard. And I see a woman, who is broken, but stands up every damn time.
I see a human with so many great friends, who are her family sometimes more than her actual one. And I see someone who at the end of the day knows that there is always something to live for, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Some days may be hard, some days may be great. That is just how life works.
If you are struggling, if you are having dark thoughts, if you feel like you are alone in this world, know this: You are not alone. You are loved. You are worthy.
Please make sure to talk to someone. Here are some sites:
Talk to your friends, to your family or reach out to stranger. You will be surprised.
What I am trying to say is: With all the social media out there, with all the “happy lives” you see, with all the “happiness” around, you can easily think that it is just your life, that it is just you. But here’s the thing: Everyone has struggles. Some are worse, some are not. But everyone has their own struggles they bear every day. Just because social media says something else – better – portrays something else, know this:
A picture says a lot more than what you can see.
A picture is a moment of pretense.
Yes, some pictures aren’t that, but let’s be real, most of the pictures are. Just remember that is okay too. You don’t have to show everyone your pain, but you also do not have to hide it.
Now, I am going to sign off and spend the day reading for a term paper and trying not to procrastinate and Netflix instead.
I am very thankful for everyone here on this platform who follows and reads my blog! I hope you all have a wonderful day and spend it laughing!